Thursday, October 12, 2006 Dear Friend   I've been feeling kinda down lately.. things haven't been going so well. I feel like just locking myself in my room and crying. I'll drown myself in tears, if it'll wash the pain away. Family, Friends, Lovers, Health, and University.. problems from all corners. I'm just one person. I don't think i can handle it. I'm hoping for a miracle. I want a miracle. For now, here's a song for a few friends of mine. Especially one in particular, *Pusa*. I miss u and i hope everything works out for you and ur family.   To all my friends, who have been there for me I just wanna thank you. I really appreciate it and it means the world to me.   Stacie Orrico - Dear Friend Dear Friend, what's on your mind You don't laugh the way you used to But I've noticed how you cry Dear friend, I feel so helpless I see you sit in silence As you face new pain each day I feel there's nothing I can do I know you don't feel pretty Even though you are But it wasn't your beauty That found room in my heart Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend Dear friend, I'm here for you I know that you don't talk too much But we can share this day anew Dear Friend, please don't feel like you're alone There is someone who is praying Praying for your peace of mind Hoping joy is what you'll find I know you don't feel weak Even though you are But it wasn't your strength That found room in my heart Dear friend, you are so precious, Dear Friend La da da da da... La da da da da La da da da da Yeah Ooohh Heee heeee yeah You are so precious so precious la da da ya ooo   Posted at 02:01 pm by missundaztood *Care 2 comment?*   Permalink     Wednesday, February 22, 2006 Friends? Ironic how when u really need someone, they're just never there. I dont even know who my friends are anymore. Whats the point in trusting someone who doesnt trust u? or someone who constantly takes what she says back?  someone who keeps things from you? Im human, im your friend. Or at least I thought I was. Yeah I know i can be difficult, I know i can be annoying, i know my faults. At least I try... to im just like anyone else. Im not that important. You can live without me. You dont need me. a3arf ennech ma radaity 3ala mokalamat-hom.... o ba3dain? bayanteely enna enty et3amleeny methel ma et3amleenhom. Im just someone u met a few months ago... u dont know me 9a7? laish eta3been 3omrech? lo tbeen 3amleeny shara6 el '3arb ba3ad. what do u care what i think?!  U may matter to me, but i obviously dont matter to you. enseeny o ba3deeny 3an darbch.... o throw our friendship away.. ermeeha wara '9ahrech.... isnt that what u want????? Go ahead.... whats stopping you?     Posted at 02:27 pm by missundaztood *Add Comments* (2)   Permalink     Thursday, December 08, 2005 Missed You Today I talked to a few people who i havent talked to for a long while. The first convo was with *pusa* I didnt expect to talk to her today, but im not sure how the convo went. Maybe I upsetted her. maybe we shouldnt have talked. If I did upset her I'm sorry and I didnt mean it. If its something or someone else then u know im always here 4 u right. So ummm just take care of yourself for me okay.. and dont let life walk all over u. The next convo included my tita and her two daughters- Alex and Bea. My tita was excited to talk 2 me and she brought back a smile to my face. Even if me n her never talk things between us can NEVER change.. at least not to the worst. Then I spoke to Bea.. me n her keep in touch constantly through friendster messages... yet the distance between us seemed to cause the silence in the conversation. I had so much to say and so did she..yet we didnt really say a thing. I missed her and I couldnt tell her on the phone. we barely said anything... and as we were making small talk she interrupted and said i really miss u. ahhhh i miss her too... more than she knows. Then I talked to Alex, she still makes her jokes that makes me laugh. but even with her i cudnt say much, neither did she. We decided we'd just talk about everything the next time we see each other. Whenever that will be. My mom, yaso, & rashid are leaving to the Philippines in 13 days. They will be there for 3 weeks. Everything is being packed, trips are being planned, but there's one thing they're leaving behind- me! I wanna go more than any one of them. And it kills to hear how much fun they'll have without me. I'll b left to rot in this stupid university studying for finals. I wanna break something. I wanna scream. I wanna cry. I wanna go. I have no choice. Posted at 11:13 pm by missundaztood *Add Comments* (1)   Permalink     Next Page